Is everybody engaged but me!?

Steve's engaged. Yup, MY steve. "Utah Boy"......yeah.....you know the one. Anyway, I got on NX yesterday and found his member title changed and a thread started by him....his member title is "Do I hear wedding bells?" and the thread, entitled "The most important question of my life" said this:

Well it's been a long time coming, but it's finally happen to me. I've waited a very very long time for it too. But today, I asked that question. That one question that will change my life forever. I asked, "Jamie, will you marry me?" AND SHE SAID YES!!!!

For anyone who doesn't know the story... We first met when we were in 5th grade (so I think about age 10-11?). We didn't start being really good friends until age 16. Later that year when we became close we started dating. We were together for 3 and a half years after that. The best years of my life. But then when I was 20 we broke up. We were apart for 3 years. During this 3 year span we both called each other almost every week and always kept in touch. Always remembering each other. Then finally this past January we started dating again to see if we could give it another try or bury our relationship forever. Things went well and here I am today. We got an apartment yesterday and I will be moving in next month. We will be getting married in September. And honestly people, I've never been happier in my life. And I just wanna add a big thanks to my very close friends here who have helped me these past years, Tazzy, Bobbi, Vampira, ChaosMonroe, and Hexus.

So I'll keep you guys posted and I will definatly post pictures when I get them. I'll try to get a pic of the ring tomorrow and post it. But for now, here is a pic of my beautiful fiance! (thanks Zorbo for helping me out with the pic) And don't mind my messy room in the background

So needless to say I am quite happy for him but it's hard for me to grasp just because I was so in love with him, as you can read from some of my previous posts in this blog. My response to that thread was this:

That is such awesome news Steve! I am so proud of you and happy that you're finally getting your happy ending, I've always wanted that for you! You were like my best friend for a long time and I always told Heather that I wanted you to be happy cause I always knew that you were longing to be and now you finally are. I hope that everything works out for you, you two deserve the world and now you have it! I'm glad you finally posted a pic of Jamie cause I've always wanted to see her, she's a cutie! Don't be a stranger! hehe

So that's it. I cried quite a bit, not because I'm sad that he's getting married but sad at the fact that I want to be in love and cared about as much as those two carea bout and love eachother. I just hope that I will find that love someday and be engaged and then married. I want that so much. I still have those two sites bookmarked, you know, the ones with the wedding rings I like. I went and looked at them again and fatasized, hehe. Now I just need the guy.

I did call Darius earlier and left a message since he didn't answer his cell(shocker, I know!) and just basically said that I know he knows that I like him and if he thinks that we could be together then lemme know and if not to lemme know, and that either way there would be no hard feelings. I just hope he calls me back tonight cause I really want to know if I need to start moving on or not, ya know? It's hard to wait for someone that you really like, only to have them decide that they don't want to be with you and you've wasted all this time and possibly lost other opportunities. Not that I have guys beating down my door but you know, sometimes you have someone who is interested and it's nice to at least give them a chance. And on that note, I'm going to get back to my....

WAIT! I forgot to write about this. This past Wednesday I had that speech competition....I was really nervous but I ended up getting third place out of eleven speakers so I was pretty excited! (and a bit surprised) Each speaker got a nice little prize pack and it was quite fun but I'm WAY glad that it's over! hehe.