Cuddles is people.

So....yeah....I'm in a weird mood right now. I've been talking to a certain someone a lot lately online(which isn't unusual but just lately it's been kinda different). The other night him and I were talking on MSN and he said something about me calling in sick to work the next day and meeting him halfway for the night so we could see eachother and mess around or whatever. I wish, so much, that it could've happened cause I miss him lots and lots. I ended up getting my "lady time" that night so it was for the best that we didn't drive all that way and meet up but it would have still been nice to be able to fall asleep next time him and wake up next to him the next morning. I just love that feeling, it's one of the best feelings in the whole entire world.

When I got off work last night I went to my car and saw that I had a text message from him too....it said "so you're coming to my house after you get off work right? RIGHT!?" I know he didn't really mean it but it was still nice and put a huge smile on my face. I just keep thinking about how much I wanna be able to see him easier and stuff, if only West Valley City and Fort Collins were so close...bah! I know that he might be gettin back with his ex in January, and that really sucks, but that's life and if it happens I'll just have to suck it up and move on. There's just something about him that pulls me to him and I can't seem to let him go(in the more than friend way). Oh well, such is life...never know what's going to happen.

Before I end my writing today I also need to write about Tim getting married. Yup, Tim Arnott got married September 22nd.....MY TIM! Can you believe it!? I'm just glad that Molly(his new wife) is a sweetheart and not one of those girls that you wanna kick in the head every two seconds. She's moving out there in a few months and they're going to rent a house and live as husband and wife. WOW, huh!?

Leaning towards the past?

In the past few days I've been thinking about my ex boyfriend Drew. He's now a Marine and station, until this coming January, in Okinawa Japan but we've been talking on MSN messanger almost every night. He asked me to put on my web cam so that he could see me again, since we hadn't seen eachother for almost 3 years in person, and he said that he was "all grins" because he didn't remember how pretty I was. Then the next day he got a web cam and I got to see him and it was really nice as well. He wants to take me out for dinner and a movie when he's home in Jan. but I'm just not sure if I want to be his girlfriend....for a third time. I mean, I like talking to him and am very sexualy attracted to him but I dunno if things would work out, guess I'll just have to cross that bridge when I come to it.

There's also this guy at work that I have a HUGE crush on. His name is Patrick and he's an EMT and is going to school at CSU. The thing that I think is so funny and kinda weird is that he's a blond. That's right....he's got blond hair! I hardly ever like guys with blond hair...I'm more a black/dark brown kinda girl myself. I've only dated one guy that had that color hair and he was a total moron so I hope that Patrick isn't one. I don't know how he feels about me cause he's such a flirt with everyone, it's hard to know if he's just flirting to flirt or really interested. He went to us to the foam party last week(not the one I wrote about but the week after that one) and it was soooooo much fun! I got him to go and picked him up and got to see his house and whatnot, so that was pretty cool. Then he wrore a button down shirt and when we were dancing in the foam he unbuttoned it completely and I got to touch his chest and everything all over so that was really really nice. We danced really close and I thought that we might kiss a few times but we were both being a bit shy. Man, I wish I knew if he liked me or not......when we were sitting in my car, after I took him home, he didn't get out right away. Normally when you drop a friend off they thank you and get outta the car right away but he just sat there, almost like he wanted to kiss me but wasn't sure what to do. I dunno, that's enough about him, I'll just have to wait it out and see if he makes anymore moves. There are more stories but I don't feel like typing them all out at this point.

I have tomorrow and Tuesday off so that's awesome cause I can get some cleaning done around the apartment and mom and I are going to go talk to Front Range CC Tuesday(hopfully) and get me started with school soon so I'm pretty excited about that. Tomorrow night I'm going out with Josh Mino. Yup, the one and only Mino. I haven't hung out with him for like 8 or 9 months so I'm really excited to see him again and get to just be with him. I swear he's one of those guys that you could bring home to your parents.....I think my mom wants me to marry him, lol. Ok, that's enough typing for one night, gunna go to bed now. TaTa!