Whirlwinds
Since I last wrote there have been a lot of things going on, too many to even remember or write about but I'll try and get as many as I can in this entry.
Well, since my last post was about Steve's engagement, I guess I should write about what's happened with him since then. Basically, the short verision will come in this paragraph cause it's WAY too long to go into too much detail about at this point. She basically showed absolutely NO emotion what-so-ever for him....like, no hugging, kissing, hand holding, cuddling, etc. He confronted her on it and she said that she was ok the way she was and didn't want to change and would be happy living alone the rest of her life. So he wrote me this big ass email saying that he had just realized how I felt after everything he dragged me through and he felt horrible how he had trated me in the past. Then he said that he had been thinking about me and how different things could've been, had he not kept "her" on the 'bench'. Then I started to realize that I still had feelings for him, even though I had shut them off since he was engaged and there was no point for me to like a married man. We talked for a few days and we were all flirty and I thought that MAYBE, just maybe, I'd finally get him and get my "happy ending". Well, he's been on and off with her lately and he keeps believing her when she says she'll change and then the next day she changes her mind again. I just don't understand how he can put himself through it. Everyone in his life is telling him to get over it and move on and he KNOWS he should be he's trying to hang on to it. I guess it's understandable cause she's the only girl he's ever known as a girlfriend and it's hard to let go. I just wish that he could see that he'd be so much more appreciated with anyone but her. Oh well, it's his life and hope things work out for the best.....even if it is with the she-devil. I just don't know if I'll be there again to pick up the pieces if, no WHEN, it falls apart again. I know that he'll never truely be happy and that he'll be faking it if he gets married to her but that's his mistake to make. Enough about that or I'm likely to cry or something.
We went to California July 1-5 and it was quite a fun trip and my first trip out there to the west coast. The bummer thing was that Frontier lost my bag on the way out so I cried a bit cause I didn't know if I'd ever see it again but fortunately it showed up the next day and boy was I happy. We had gone to Target the first night, just incase my bag didn't show, and bought a new swimsuit and an outfit and toiletries. We went whale watching, which was quite an experience in itself. If you ever get a chance to go, one word of advice. Dramamine! TAKE IT! I swear, even if you don't get motion sickness normally you WILL need it. The water is rough and I thought I was going to pass out and/or puke the entire time out on the boat. Otherwise it was great, lol. I saw the tale a few times so that was really neat. I saw sealions, an otter and starfish while we were in CA as well. The bummer thing was that we didn't get to see Drew because he was in SoCal and we were in San Jose, San Fran and Monterey Bay so that was too far to drive to see him. We were all bummed that we weren't going to get to meet up but he's coming home soon so it's not a big deal. We did get to watch fireworks and hang out all day at Aunt Rita's so that was nice and they have a big house with a little pool so I swam a bit. We also toured this place called The Winchest Mystery House....that was so neat. 160 rooms, 950 doors, 17 chimneys, 1 shower, 13 bathrooms, etc. The house was crazy and so neat, glad we went and toured it an I bought a shot glass(since I collect them) from there with the house on it and the store behind the house written on it too.
What else to talk about.....Drew. Yeah, you remember Drew Reiplinger. I dated him when I was 15 and again when I was 16.b Anyway, he and I have been talking online and whatnot for quite a while again now and he's coming home to visit July 22-30 so I can't wait. We've talked about getting back together and all this stuff so I'm not sure how the trip with him is going to go. I had a dream that him and I got married. It was crazy, my mom and other people had planned our wedding and I started the dream like the day before the wedding. My mom hadn't planned where I was getting my hair done or what I was wearing for my veil or anything so that was weird. Then I pop into the actual ceremony and Drew has said his vows and it's now my turn but I don't know mine since mom did everything so I had to get help. It was such a weird dream. About a week lately I told Drew about the dream in an IM and I was afraid that it would scare him off since most guys my age don't like to talk about marriage or anything like that but he didn't get scared or weirded out or anything. He said that he was like relieved that I had that dream or something but wouldn't tell me why but that he'd tell me soon enough. So I dunno what that means......maybe he's thinking of proposing? maybe he's getting married and hasn't told me yet? Who knows. Guess I'll find out when he comes home.
A little bit more before I stop writing and call it good. Angel Valdez Smith. Yeah, we've been talking online for a couple of months, on and off, and it's been great. We finally started to web cam and talk on the phone. Over the course of three nights, we talked a total of about 11 hours on the phone and thats NOT including the online/web cam time. So we decided to meet up at Starbucks last sunday and see how things went. They seemed to go great, I liked him, he seemed to like me. Well, I've gotten ONE text from him since then....it's now Friday and the only reason he texted me was in response to one I wrote him. So I guess that means Erin loses out YET AGAIN! What is my issue? I don't understand how I can make this guy get "butterflies" one day and then he meets me and it seems to go well but he won't call me or anything. I have some of the shittiest luck. I mean, I know people say that but I really do. I get too attached too quickly/easily and I get screwed. Is it my weight? Personality? WHAT!?!?!?! Oh well, time to move on I guess since it's after 10 and still no word from him.
Oh yeah, Elaine's in town til Monday so that's good! Picked her up from the airport and surprised her parents, it was awesome and so much fun. She looks good and I was happy to at least get to chill with her for like 4 hours that night. Ok, gotta finish for now, write again soon!
Well, since my last post was about Steve's engagement, I guess I should write about what's happened with him since then. Basically, the short verision will come in this paragraph cause it's WAY too long to go into too much detail about at this point. She basically showed absolutely NO emotion what-so-ever for him....like, no hugging, kissing, hand holding, cuddling, etc. He confronted her on it and she said that she was ok the way she was and didn't want to change and would be happy living alone the rest of her life. So he wrote me this big ass email saying that he had just realized how I felt after everything he dragged me through and he felt horrible how he had trated me in the past. Then he said that he had been thinking about me and how different things could've been, had he not kept "her" on the 'bench'. Then I started to realize that I still had feelings for him, even though I had shut them off since he was engaged and there was no point for me to like a married man. We talked for a few days and we were all flirty and I thought that MAYBE, just maybe, I'd finally get him and get my "happy ending". Well, he's been on and off with her lately and he keeps believing her when she says she'll change and then the next day she changes her mind again. I just don't understand how he can put himself through it. Everyone in his life is telling him to get over it and move on and he KNOWS he should be he's trying to hang on to it. I guess it's understandable cause she's the only girl he's ever known as a girlfriend and it's hard to let go. I just wish that he could see that he'd be so much more appreciated with anyone but her. Oh well, it's his life and hope things work out for the best.....even if it is with the she-devil. I just don't know if I'll be there again to pick up the pieces if, no WHEN, it falls apart again. I know that he'll never truely be happy and that he'll be faking it if he gets married to her but that's his mistake to make. Enough about that or I'm likely to cry or something.
We went to California July 1-5 and it was quite a fun trip and my first trip out there to the west coast. The bummer thing was that Frontier lost my bag on the way out so I cried a bit cause I didn't know if I'd ever see it again but fortunately it showed up the next day and boy was I happy. We had gone to Target the first night, just incase my bag didn't show, and bought a new swimsuit and an outfit and toiletries. We went whale watching, which was quite an experience in itself. If you ever get a chance to go, one word of advice. Dramamine! TAKE IT! I swear, even if you don't get motion sickness normally you WILL need it. The water is rough and I thought I was going to pass out and/or puke the entire time out on the boat. Otherwise it was great, lol. I saw the tale a few times so that was really neat. I saw sealions, an otter and starfish while we were in CA as well. The bummer thing was that we didn't get to see Drew because he was in SoCal and we were in San Jose, San Fran and Monterey Bay so that was too far to drive to see him. We were all bummed that we weren't going to get to meet up but he's coming home soon so it's not a big deal. We did get to watch fireworks and hang out all day at Aunt Rita's so that was nice and they have a big house with a little pool so I swam a bit. We also toured this place called The Winchest Mystery House....that was so neat. 160 rooms, 950 doors, 17 chimneys, 1 shower, 13 bathrooms, etc. The house was crazy and so neat, glad we went and toured it an I bought a shot glass(since I collect them) from there with the house on it and the store behind the house written on it too.
What else to talk about.....Drew. Yeah, you remember Drew Reiplinger. I dated him when I was 15 and again when I was 16.b Anyway, he and I have been talking online and whatnot for quite a while again now and he's coming home to visit July 22-30 so I can't wait. We've talked about getting back together and all this stuff so I'm not sure how the trip with him is going to go. I had a dream that him and I got married. It was crazy, my mom and other people had planned our wedding and I started the dream like the day before the wedding. My mom hadn't planned where I was getting my hair done or what I was wearing for my veil or anything so that was weird. Then I pop into the actual ceremony and Drew has said his vows and it's now my turn but I don't know mine since mom did everything so I had to get help. It was such a weird dream. About a week lately I told Drew about the dream in an IM and I was afraid that it would scare him off since most guys my age don't like to talk about marriage or anything like that but he didn't get scared or weirded out or anything. He said that he was like relieved that I had that dream or something but wouldn't tell me why but that he'd tell me soon enough. So I dunno what that means......maybe he's thinking of proposing? maybe he's getting married and hasn't told me yet? Who knows. Guess I'll find out when he comes home.
A little bit more before I stop writing and call it good. Angel Valdez Smith. Yeah, we've been talking online for a couple of months, on and off, and it's been great. We finally started to web cam and talk on the phone. Over the course of three nights, we talked a total of about 11 hours on the phone and thats NOT including the online/web cam time. So we decided to meet up at Starbucks last sunday and see how things went. They seemed to go great, I liked him, he seemed to like me. Well, I've gotten ONE text from him since then....it's now Friday and the only reason he texted me was in response to one I wrote him. So I guess that means Erin loses out YET AGAIN! What is my issue? I don't understand how I can make this guy get "butterflies" one day and then he meets me and it seems to go well but he won't call me or anything. I have some of the shittiest luck. I mean, I know people say that but I really do. I get too attached too quickly/easily and I get screwed. Is it my weight? Personality? WHAT!?!?!?! Oh well, time to move on I guess since it's after 10 and still no word from him.
Oh yeah, Elaine's in town til Monday so that's good! Picked her up from the airport and surprised her parents, it was awesome and so much fun. She looks good and I was happy to at least get to chill with her for like 4 hours that night. Ok, gotta finish for now, write again soon!
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