Why am I crying today!?
Today has been kinda weird. I woke up and got ready for work, like any other day. Went into work and it went by really fast. Seems that being a CSA makes the day just fly by cause before I knew it, it was 4pm and I was getting to go home. It's trippy how that works. But near the end of my shift I started to feel really inadequate. Basically what happened is this.....I did a cash refund but didn't have enough money in register 1 to do it so I had to take it outta the next register. I had to tell Mo and he said to just take out the money and rectify it later on(no biggie, right?). Well, Jesse comes up later and says that I always mess up and how Mo was saying that he should take my job since I 'always mess up'. I am sure they were both kidding but it just struck a nerve I guess and made me just wanna get the hell outta there. I hate feeling inadequate at Circuit City....it really gets under my skin.
Enough about work before I hurl myself off a bridge. Why is it that when you think things might be starting to look up for you(in the love department) you feel like you've gone back and started back at stage one? Like, I keep trying to help others and tell them that things'll turn around for them and to "just keep swimming" but it doesn't seem to work for me so why would other people do it too? Like with Drew, he seems into me and 'us' being a couple and whatnot but I've hardly talked to him 3 times since he's been outta colorado. I know he's busy with being in the Marines and whatnot, which I totally understand, but now it just feels like he's blowing me off completely. He went to Japan for 2 1/2 weeks and I've yet to hear from him, though he told me he'd be back this past Saturday and would gimme a call. Am I overreacting? Maybe I am, I don't know anymore. I just don't know. People keep asking me if I've takled to him and I say no, with a pouty face, but with hurricane Katrina and everything, he could be there....who knows. Just gunna see what happens.
Yep, onto the imfamous Steve topic. I really like Steve. He likes me(I didn't put really cause I don't know about really liking me or not) Anyway, I think about him a lot and want him to be here and he asked me a couple weeks ago what I would do/say if he moved to Colorado. I didn't know what to say so I said that I'd have a heartattack. Well shit, I would! I mean, that'd be the biggest shock EVER! It'd be nice, don't get me wrong, but a shocker none the less. It was sweet cause I took a nap yesterday(I'll write about why in a second) but I had on MSN for my name something about taking a nap and asking "wanna join me!?" and he IMed me and said that he wonted to join me. Then he said sleep tight and to text him when I woke up and that he'd get on MSN to talk with me. It probably didn't mean much to him but it was awesome to me. It's the small things in life that make all the difference in the world.
Wondering about that nap thing yet? hehe. Well, I went up to Greeley on Sunday night to go out with Lauren and her friend Jordan(and whoever else decided to show up and chill with us). We went to the Rio and had food and a margarita. Then headed over to Jacksons for drinks and meeting up with people. While there I had 3 Sex on the Beaches, 1 Fuzzy Navel(the drink), and 2 Kamakazi shots. THEN, we went to Jordan's apartment and some people came over and we played Kings Cup.....drank 1 Budlight(bottle) and 1 1/2 Keystone lights. Needless to say I was pretty gone yet I do remember everything that was said/done and I even remember my MSN phone convo with Steve, lol. This guy Ryan was such a cutie....wish I could see him again. Now that I've pretty much gotten a bit out, I'm gunna sleep, it's already 10:41 and I'm mad tired.
Enough about work before I hurl myself off a bridge. Why is it that when you think things might be starting to look up for you(in the love department) you feel like you've gone back and started back at stage one? Like, I keep trying to help others and tell them that things'll turn around for them and to "just keep swimming" but it doesn't seem to work for me so why would other people do it too? Like with Drew, he seems into me and 'us' being a couple and whatnot but I've hardly talked to him 3 times since he's been outta colorado. I know he's busy with being in the Marines and whatnot, which I totally understand, but now it just feels like he's blowing me off completely. He went to Japan for 2 1/2 weeks and I've yet to hear from him, though he told me he'd be back this past Saturday and would gimme a call. Am I overreacting? Maybe I am, I don't know anymore. I just don't know. People keep asking me if I've takled to him and I say no, with a pouty face, but with hurricane Katrina and everything, he could be there....who knows. Just gunna see what happens.
Yep, onto the imfamous Steve topic. I really like Steve. He likes me(I didn't put really cause I don't know about really liking me or not) Anyway, I think about him a lot and want him to be here and he asked me a couple weeks ago what I would do/say if he moved to Colorado. I didn't know what to say so I said that I'd have a heartattack. Well shit, I would! I mean, that'd be the biggest shock EVER! It'd be nice, don't get me wrong, but a shocker none the less. It was sweet cause I took a nap yesterday(I'll write about why in a second) but I had on MSN for my name something about taking a nap and asking "wanna join me!?" and he IMed me and said that he wonted to join me. Then he said sleep tight and to text him when I woke up and that he'd get on MSN to talk with me. It probably didn't mean much to him but it was awesome to me. It's the small things in life that make all the difference in the world.
Wondering about that nap thing yet? hehe. Well, I went up to Greeley on Sunday night to go out with Lauren and her friend Jordan(and whoever else decided to show up and chill with us). We went to the Rio and had food and a margarita. Then headed over to Jacksons for drinks and meeting up with people. While there I had 3 Sex on the Beaches, 1 Fuzzy Navel(the drink), and 2 Kamakazi shots. THEN, we went to Jordan's apartment and some people came over and we played Kings Cup.....drank 1 Budlight(bottle) and 1 1/2 Keystone lights. Needless to say I was pretty gone yet I do remember everything that was said/done and I even remember my MSN phone convo with Steve, lol. This guy Ryan was such a cutie....wish I could see him again. Now that I've pretty much gotten a bit out, I'm gunna sleep, it's already 10:41 and I'm mad tired.
posted by Erin @ 8:21 PM
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