Butterflies in my tummy

Well, it's happened. Yup, it's finally happened and I couldn't be happier. Wondering what I'm talking about yet? I bet you are, just admit it! hehe. Ok, ok, I have a boyfriend! Yeah, ME of all people. After being single for almost four years, I finally have a wonderful boyfriend. His name is Nathaniel William Vincent, 21 years old, 6'1" tall, blue eyes, glasses, cute smile. We met through the Yahoo personals website, he emailed me and we started talking through Y! instant messanger. Then we started talking on the phone late at night, sometimes til 3:30 in the morning and all the while feeling like I had little butterflies flapping their wings inside my stomach. He had the same feeling too and we decided that we wanted to meet up and see where it might go. So this past thursday night we met up at the Old Chicago on 120th/Colorado for dinner. He came straight from work, I came straight from Astonomy class. When he walked through the door I got a huge smile on my face, as did he, and we hugged a big hug. We sat and ordered our food and talked and then later held hands over the table for three hours at Old C's. Then we both wanted to take a walk so we did just that, we walked around the parking lots in the area and then through an apartment complex....it was just a lot of fun with his arm around me most of the time and holding hands the other times. Then towards the end of the night we sat in my car and talked and held hands and waited for eachother to make a move and kiss the other. I wanted him to so badly but I wasn't sure if I should do it or if he would kiss me first. So I waited and he finally did it and it was AWESOME! The way he touched my face with his hand as we kissed and how his lips seemed to fit perfectly with mine was an overwhelming and wonderful feeling. We stayed out til about 2:30 and I couldn't help but have a HUGE smile on my face afterwards. We talked a lot on Friday and went over to his mom/stepdad's house to watch a movie with him. We kissed quite a bit that night as well and just cuddled up to eachother. Oh yeah, it was so sweet because before his mom and stepdad left for their comdy show she asked me if I liked lotion and I, of course, said I did. She said that she had bought 4 bath and body works lotions but didn't need two of them so she offered one to me and I had Nate pick which one he liked best for me. It was just really nice that she would offer that to me and not really even know me. Nate also told me that he had told his stepdad that I was his girl and that made me feel so good inside. The night after that(saturday) was dad and mary's ten year anniversary party and Nate said that he'd go with me so we went. We had a lot of fun and he enjoyed looking at pictures of me throughout the years and it was great to share that with him. After we left there we went to his place so I could see where he was living(though he's moving back into his mom's next month). We ended up there and we laid down and cuddled and kissed for quite a few hours, it was awesome. I'll never forget that night either. I just feel so wonderful when I'm with him.....I feel more alive these past few days than I have in years. He cares about me and calls me all the time and IMs me and just shows me how much he cares. It's such an awesome feeling. He also has a 3 year old daughter named Bridgette. She's sooooo adorable and he's great with her. He's a wonderful father and knows how to care for his little girl and I think it's awesome. I'm not sure how to tell my mom that he has a little girl but I'm sure it'll be fine because it's a package deal and she's a great little girl. I can't wait to do things like the zoo and aquarium and whatnot with both Nate and Bri. I thinking about ALL the time. He's the first person(or anything) that I think about when I first wake up in the morning and he's the last when I fall asleep at night. I know that we've not been together for even a week yet but it feels like we've known eachother for years and it's awesome. I get to see him tonight, we're going to see '40-year-old Virgin' so that will hopefully be yet another wonderful night with him. I'm sure it will as they all are so far. I guess that's enough about him for now although I could go on and on and on(times infinity plus one, hehe)

Bank statements and IQ tests

So I wanted to just do a quick blurb. My wellsfargo card account is outta control and mom and Dave said they'd help so that's awesome, even though I cried my eyes out. It's just a sense of failure but it'll be ok I hope. Then I took this IQ test, hopefully the pasting of the results will work down below, we shall see. All for now!

Edit: Well, it didn't work. I got a 122 for my IQ according to the test so there's that. This is what it said:

You scored 122 Intelligence!

Aww...you're basically a genius. 132 is the IQ where Mensa accepts you.
How about giving it a try? You were the probably the kid who got all
A's in high school..or you could be like me, a brilliant slacker...too
smart for your own good. It goes both ways. You are ver gifted.

I scored higher than 59% of people my age and gender.

Why am I crying today!?

Today has been kinda weird. I woke up and got ready for work, like any other day. Went into work and it went by really fast. Seems that being a CSA makes the day just fly by cause before I knew it, it was 4pm and I was getting to go home. It's trippy how that works. But near the end of my shift I started to feel really inadequate. Basically what happened is this.....I did a cash refund but didn't have enough money in register 1 to do it so I had to take it outta the next register. I had to tell Mo and he said to just take out the money and rectify it later on(no biggie, right?). Well, Jesse comes up later and says that I always mess up and how Mo was saying that he should take my job since I 'always mess up'. I am sure they were both kidding but it just struck a nerve I guess and made me just wanna get the hell outta there. I hate feeling inadequate at Circuit City....it really gets under my skin.

Enough about work before I hurl myself off a bridge. Why is it that when you think things might be starting to look up for you(in the love department) you feel like you've gone back and started back at stage one? Like, I keep trying to help others and tell them that things'll turn around for them and to "just keep swimming" but it doesn't seem to work for me so why would other people do it too? Like with Drew, he seems into me and 'us' being a couple and whatnot but I've hardly talked to him 3 times since he's been outta colorado. I know he's busy with being in the Marines and whatnot, which I totally understand, but now it just feels like he's blowing me off completely. He went to Japan for 2 1/2 weeks and I've yet to hear from him, though he told me he'd be back this past Saturday and would gimme a call. Am I overreacting? Maybe I am, I don't know anymore. I just don't know. People keep asking me if I've takled to him and I say no, with a pouty face, but with hurricane Katrina and everything, he could be there....who knows. Just gunna see what happens.

Yep, onto the imfamous Steve topic. I really like Steve. He likes me(I didn't put really cause I don't know about really liking me or not) Anyway, I think about him a lot and want him to be here and he asked me a couple weeks ago what I would do/say if he moved to Colorado. I didn't know what to say so I said that I'd have a heartattack. Well shit, I would! I mean, that'd be the biggest shock EVER! It'd be nice, don't get me wrong, but a shocker none the less. It was sweet cause I took a nap yesterday(I'll write about why in a second) but I had on MSN for my name something about taking a nap and asking "wanna join me!?" and he IMed me and said that he wonted to join me. Then he said sleep tight and to text him when I woke up and that he'd get on MSN to talk with me. It probably didn't mean much to him but it was awesome to me. It's the small things in life that make all the difference in the world.

Wondering about that nap thing yet? hehe. Well, I went up to Greeley on Sunday night to go out with Lauren and her friend Jordan(and whoever else decided to show up and chill with us). We went to the Rio and had food and a margarita. Then headed over to Jacksons for drinks and meeting up with people. While there I had 3 Sex on the Beaches, 1 Fuzzy Navel(the drink), and 2 Kamakazi shots. THEN, we went to Jordan's apartment and some people came over and we played Kings Cup.....drank 1 Budlight(bottle) and 1 1/2 Keystone lights. Needless to say I was pretty gone yet I do remember everything that was said/done and I even remember my MSN phone convo with Steve, lol. This guy Ryan was such a cutie....wish I could see him again. Now that I've pretty much gotten a bit out, I'm gunna sleep, it's already 10:41 and I'm mad tired.